i will get out of this damn state. with OR without your useless help.

so i had the ics worker assist me in filling in one of the required packets that i believe this housing agency asked for because i had spoke to a lady that worked there last week and she said she had received my information- i just needed to fill out a packet that they sent me and send it to them. so i sent the packet that the ics assisted me in filling out today to them. i got news for my mom who is obviously too damn naive to understand this.. amanda is putting herself on the same level the more she acts naive in why i want to possibly make MY OWN LIFE which wouldn't include depending on my family for EVERYTHING (like my mom was basically raised and still continues to depend on OTHERS for EVERYTHING)- I am NOT my mom. we have two COMPLETELY DIFFERENT situations. i did NOT begin with a damn traumatic brain injury. it was caused by a car accident which NEARLY killed me. i'm annoyed that i need to refresh the memory of amanda and anyone else possibly reading this.. but then it comes to me- i wouldn't have to remind people of the shit i've been through IF they REALLY cared about me as much as they try to make it seem by being unsupportive of me living MY GOALS- not just what's more convenient to make them appear like they actually care about me. IF you really cared about me- i wouldn't have had to go through half the shit i've had to in my life. i wouldn't have had to have at least two of the surgeries i've had in my life SO FAR. i'm gonna tell you pretentious dicks what i'm gonna do for you- i won't bother calling you OR even answering the phone if you call me (not even when i'm bored and i just wanna be amused by your stupidity). YOU'RE WELCOME. amanda and my mom don't seem to understand or care that THIS IS A DIFFERENT TIME THAN WHEN MY MOM WAS BEING SUPPORTED BY MY GRANDPARENTS. I DON'T have the benefit of being supported by my parents who could house me in their apartment without requiring me to pay for rent ever. unlike my mom. i HAVE to work a damn job in order to survive. I CAN'T JUST DEPEND ON LIVING OFF SOCIAL SECURITY AND GOING TO THE COURAGE CENTER LIKE A MINDLESS DISABLED PAWN. DON'T THINK I DIDN'T TRY TO TELL DIFFERENT PEOPLE WHO INTERVIEWED ME FOR A FEW OF MY JOBS THAT I WENT TO COURAGE KENNY WHILE I WASN'T WORKING. i don't really think it made a difference to them. so by just supporting me to do that shit (LIKE BOTH OF YOU DO), you're basically encouraging me to the grave. are you two going to pay for my funeral too since you're so encouraging of me to throw away all my goals and all my accomplishments so i'm left to depend on no one and the only place left for me will be 6 feet under. THEN IF MY MOM IS STILL ALIVE- SHE CAN RECIEVE ALL THE SYMPATHY SHE CAN POSSIBLY HOPE TO GET! *CLAPS* I UNDERSTAND YOUR MOTIVES NOW. you tire me and don't count on contacting me in the new year and on. go find your miserable company elsewhere. i don't have time for your shit. i'm putting the last number you called me with on block along with asking jay what your number is (since he was gonna give it to me the last time he spoke to me on text message but i don't think he did because i didn't really show interest in it).